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Performers when they’re not performing!

Michele Frances Clark at Crack Bellmer by Suzanne Forbes May 28 2020

Here are two drawings from the last two live shows I went to before self-isolation.

I made this drawing of fellow New Yorker Michele Frances Clark and Sky of @skyandmichele, at the Velvet Creepers show at Crack Bellmer!

I don’t usually draw performers when they aren’t performing, but I looked across the dark club and saw Michele’s character and style and beauty shining like a lamp. I hope I have captured that feeling a little bit. I am sorry I didn’t get her partner, amazing hooper Sky, from the front, but her signature long hair is there!

The Pain Proof Priestess in the dressing room at Torture Garden by Suzanne Forbes Then just a week later I wound up drawing in the dressing room at Torture Garden Berlin.

I made this picture of fantastic, majestic performer Bertoulle Beaurebec, The Pain Proof Priestess, before she changed into her costume. The dressing room was VERY SMALL, and VERY CROWDED. It was simply packed with beautiful people climbing in and out of costumes, mostly latex and leather. I was squished on a little vinyl loveseat with a boy who was threading laces into the gauntlets Sylva Hattington of Bubbles and Frown made to go with the spectacular headpieces she created for the main show. Sylva was frantically busy working on getting people dressed and made up!

I don’t usually go into the dressing room or draw performers when they aren’t fully in costume and on-stage or at least in their public personas. This is because I really value the effort that they make to create their stage selves, and want to honor that as a completed vision. However, in this instance, Ms. Beaurebec was clearly in her priestess self. She was so serene and mighty in her giant boots and robe-like gown, I felt like I was drawing an aspect of the priestess.

Fifi Fantome and Lucille Spielfuchs at Torture Garden July 14 2020 by Suzanne ForbesAnd I was in the dressing room because I was exhausted and feeling overwhelmed some of the night and there weren’t really any chill spaces at the venue, the gorgeous newly-reopened Metropol. I also drew Fifi Fantôme and Lucille Spielfuchs in the dressing room, above! Fifi was changing from a cabaret goth-clown look to a fetish look and I captured her in transition. Fifi has a Patreon now btw, with all kinds of cool stuff!

Also, I want to share a story about what happened at that Velvet Creepers show at Crack Bellmer.

Crack Bellmer is a gorgeous, marvelous venue in the RAW site in Friechrichshain. It reminds me of beloved Oakland warehouse spaces like The Vulcan. There is a sort of deck to the left of the stage, with a huge black couch on it, and that is where I was set up, with my friend and colleague Daniel Paikov. While I was drawing Michelle, a young woman came up to us.

It was during intermission, and the music was loud. The young woman leaned over and said to me, yelling, “Do you have any speed?” Because I was seated on a raised platform and leaning forward to hear her, the spray of spittle from her mouth went right over my glasses and into my eyes.

I was jolted from the shock, and at the same time, Daniel and I both cracked up because she had asked the single person in the room least likely to have any speed. Do people even do speed anymore? We laughed hysterically at her, but at the same time, my mind was racing, trying to remember everything I knew about saliva transmission of Hep C. Apparently, this girl had been going up to every single person in the club and asking if they had speed. Yelling. Probably at a hundred people, mostly drunk.

I knew about SARS-CoV-2, but I was well aware it wasn’t in Berlin yet. It was Friday, February 21st, three days before Jen Spahns announced coronavirus community spread had begun in Germany.

March 1, the morning I came home from Torture Garden at 4am, the first patient in Berlin was announced. I knew that night it was the last event I’d be going to for a long time. Both Sadie, who was sitting with me at TG, and I got sick after the party, and were sick the first week of March. But just colds. Lucky and blessed. It’s unlikely I will go to a public event without a face shield again, which is an acceptable price to pay.

I am so grateful to my Patrons on Patreon, whose monthly financial support lets me keep working safely at home.

Previous TG Berlin drawings here and here.

The first ever Torture Garden Berlin!

The Pain Proof Priestess at Torture Garden Berlin Feb 29 2020 by Suzanne ForbesHoly heck, the first Torture Garden in Berlin was amazing!

It was held at the breathtaking, legendary, just re-opened Art Deco palais The Metropol. The performers were fantastic. Above, Bertoulle Beaurebec, The Pain Proof Priestess. She is incredible. More drawings of her to come! Ms. Beaurebec is wearing a headpiece created by my friend Sylva Hattington of Bubbles and Frown. Sylva did simply unbelievable costumery for the performance. I wore one of her creations too and I have never gotten so many compliments!

Marie Devilreux at Torture Garden Berlin Feb 29 2020 by Suzanne ForbesI got to draw fantastic multi-talented Marie Devilreux!

I have been wanting to draw her for absolutely ages! Her Instagram handle is Dressed to Kill You, which never fails to delight my 80s De Palma heart.

Marie Devilreux in Moon at Torture Garden Berlin by Suzanne Forbes Oct 26 2021Another drawing of Marie Devilreux, in her flying moon hoop!

I have to admit that this is only a rough approximation of the costume she was wearing, but I tried to capture the sense of what a sparkling lovely being she is and I think that comes through!

Gina Harrison at Torture Garden Berlin Feb 29 2020 by Suzanne ForbesAn elegiac exorcism and rebirth by Gina Harrison.

The stage was covered with earth and she emerged from – well, actually I’m not gonna spoil it, in case she performs it somewhere else! You can follow Ms. Harrison here, I highly recommend it! Louis Fleischauer is the performer with her.

Martini at Torture Garden Berlin 2020 by Suzanne Forbes Oct 26 2021Berlin’s radiant queen Martini Cherry was a featured performer too!

Love to see her light up a stage.

Devinity performing in AMF corset at Torture Garden Berlin Suzanne Forbes Sept 14 2022Devinity Berlin performed with fire wearing AMF Corsets.

It took me several years to finish this one!

I had such a thrilling time. Thanks so much to Torture Garden Berlin for the press pass and access, to my Patrons on Patreon, and to my dear friend Sadie Lune for moral support!

As usual these drawings are licensed Creative Commons Attribution-NonCommercial-NoDerivatives 4.0 International (CC BY-NC-ND 4.0) for all to share and enjoy!

In addition, I release the copyright on each drawing to the performer shown and they may use the drawings for their own profit and pleeeasssure in any way they choose.