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Bi Pride Crown with holographic PVC!

Bisexual Pride crown by Suzanne Forbes March 2020Pretty things give me strength.

I made this crown early this month, thinking I could raffle it to raise money for marginalized folx in Berlin. But it quickly became clear that things like raffles and events where some proud Bi person could wear this are things for the future, not right now.

Bisexual Pride crown by Suzanne Forbes March 2020So I added some more details.

Bisexual Pride crown by Suzanne Forbes March 2020 detailYou know I love to add more details.  The main structure of this crown is the same as the Fairy Rainbow Unicorn crown from last month.

It’s a headband with curved fans of holographic vinyl wire and glued to it, and three iridescent plastic icicles left over from my Snow Queen projects in 2013.

Like that crown, it uses a product called “Angelina Fantasy Film.” Angelina Fantasy Film is a transparent, iridescent, heat sensitive film often used to make fairy wings for dolls, as I did here for Fearless Pink Gay Santa and his Jolly Ally Reindeer.

I posted a little video of me using a lighter to shape the Angelina Film here on my Instagram.

You can see an amazing video of brilliant corsetry materials innovator Joni Steinmann of Rainbow Curve Corsetry using a heat gun to shape laminated strips of bonded Worbla TranspArt and Angelina FIlm over Apoxie Sculpt forms here. And a bunch of cool Angelina Film projects on Instagram here. Here are some incredible projects on AmStamps.

Bisexual Pride crown by Suzanne Forbes March 2020 left detailI had a small sample pack of film I got from fab eBay dollmaker and materials specialist MorezMore for the Snow Queen projects.

However, I have now used up all my Angelina Fantasy Film, and I wanted to order more, back in the first week of this month. Back when I was still thinking of mail as something I could use sparingly rather than something that should be used only when necessary to save it for those who need essential supplies.

Obviously I do not want my craft supplies to add to the tremendous burden Amazon and DHL and GLS and other carriers’ workers are carrying for us all now. But back then, I looked for a UK/European seller of Angelina Fantasy Film.

Do you know how hard it is to google “Angelina Fantasy Film”?

Bisexual Pride crown by Suzanne Forbes March 2020 rt detailI did find a couple UK sellers, but decided not to order any.

The comments in the post by Joni Steinmann yielded a hot tip, that US art supplies site ArtGlitter.com sells Fantasy Film in 10″ wide strips, much bigger than other sources. Hopefully someday I’ll be able to order some. See her gorgeous finished project here!

For now and the near future, my art supplies and my mixed media art process consist of using what I have. Using everything I have. Getting everything I’ve made documented and accessible.

I am so grateful for the support of my Patrons, whose monthly subscriptions mean I can work safely at home.

Sacred Heart Redux, with some hard thoughts about C-PTSD in crisis times.

Jeweled Sacred Heart lit by fire by Suzanne Forbes March 24 2020I am so lucky to be obsessed with new materials right now.

I feel incredibly fortunate to have the privilege of staying safely at home, and then as if the universe is being wildly generous, I am also really excited about some mixed media work. I made this Jeweled Sacred Heart, which you see here in our hallway lit by actual fire, with the 3D Printer Pen my mom-in-law gave me for Christmas.

Jeweled Sacred Heart made by Suzanne Forbes March 24 2020Like many trauma survivors and childhood sexual abuse survivors with C-PTSD, I am feeling calm and focused.

I’ve been seeing disabled, chronically ill and survivor folx on twitter, Medium and The Mighty talk about how they feel clear and cool. For the first time in a long time, our insides match the outside. This isn’t a good feeling, but it is a different feeling than feeling like you are wrong for how you feel. Or being told you’re crazy for how you feel.

Jeweled Sacred Heart by Suzanne Forbes March 24 2020My nervous system feels lined up with the world in a way that it never usually does.

And I feel powerful, because I’m endocrinologically in touch with all the resources that helped me survive my abusive father, adolescent sexual attackers, professional harassers, and life-long severe depression and OCD.

Jeweled Sacred Heart by Suzanne Forbes March 24 2020It’s true that my night terrors have ramped up, and the nightmares are harder to shake off when I wake up.

But unlike so many chronically ill and disabled folk, I have all my medications on hand.

Who knew that my American habit of hoarding meds, developed in my early 40s when for a short period before Obamacare I was both uninsured and uninsurable, would come in handy? Well, me, I knew. Because I’ve always expected this.

If you’re disturbed by GenXers in your timelines yelling “Wolverines!” and seeming … almost relieved ???, please know: it’s the first time in decades the world’s messaging matches the daily messaging of our C-PTSD endrocrine systems.

Jeweled Sacred Heart by Suzanne Forbes March 24 2020 flame detailI told my husband that I imagined this time when we signed the lease for our flat.

“You did??” he replied, astonished. Of course I did. This, or the water wars, or dirigibles of starving Southern Hemisphereans landing at Tempelhofer Field and taking, deservedly, the food and medicine we should have been giving them all along.

 As an ’80s teenager I used to jolt awake at a crack of lightning in my Chelsea bedroom, thinking, “That was it. The bomb.”

Jeweled Sacred Heart by Suzanne Forbes March 24 2020 on velvetYou don’t ever shake that off; we are all refugees of some terrible part of the timeline or the planet.

It’s just that the West has never wanted to admit it, has never wanted us to raise our voices or amplify the voices of all the other sufferers.

I myself couldn’t really hear the voice of my own trauma until I came to Berlin and got on good German health insurance.

Until I went to the ER and never got a single bill. Until my husband and I pulled ourselves from a burning building.

Turns out social justice is the most important thing in the world.

We all matter. Our burning hearts are one.

Hearts Afire shadowbox

Hearts Afire embroidery